I want to buy my way out of Omelas. I don’t have nearly enough saved. I’m trying but it’s difficult. It’s my stress that causes me to spend a lot of money. Trying to keep myself from falling into depression and hopelessness.
Things are still easier now than they were when I was younger. Every little failure and rejection would be a direct hit to my self worth. Now it’s just an ‘event’ that I observe, analyze, and move on. My failures no longer have anything to do with me. They just ARE. I know I’m trying my best with what I have, and I accept that 100%.
I just keep trying, and leave the rest up to the Universe.